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Here & Now

by Vanic

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Intro 03:09
As I set down these notes on paper, I’m obsessed by the thought that I may be the last living man on earth. My wife, colleagues, my students, my books, my world, where are they? Did they ever exist? Am I Richard Pearson? What day is it? Do days exist? Exhausted by terror I fall asleep. Two days I wander in a vague northerly direction through a desolate world. Finally I notice a living creature. I’m just getting warm
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Baby break it down Lately he just turns around You’re the one thing I never thought I would need Leading me back and forth Baby hold it down Lately he just turns around You’re the one thing I never thought I would need When it comes undone I’m yours I’m yours I’m yours When it comes undone I’m yours I’m yours Oh Baby when it comes undone when it comes undone I’m yours I’m yours When it comes undone I’m yours But there you go Asking me for love It feels so good coming from above If only you’d take my hand when we’re apart Here it goes but I’m falling apart Now he takes a step backwards and I know Follows other girls to where I found true love He says baby, This is my world now He says why don’t you stay here a while I went for a walk decided I was moving on He ran out saying honey this is where you belong I need you here don’t go on moving on I’ll try but fail again Baby hold it down Lately he just turns around You’re the one thing I never thought I would need Oh when it comes undone I’m yours I’m yours I’m yours When it comes undone I’m yours Baby break it down Lately he just turns around You’re the one thing I never thought I would need Leading me back and forth Baby hold it down Lately he just turns around You’re the one thing I never thought I would need When it comes undone I’m yours
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Falling down like puzzle pieces To the floor I get anxiety Feel like I’m only half decent Open my mouth and it freezes It’s alright when I’m with you Sit in silence in our room Kill the lights and close our eyes You and me ain’t had it easy Made our way to New York City Missed our rent but paid our dues We’ll be somewhere better soon We’ll be somewhere better soon Somewhere better soon We’ll be somewhere better soon Somewhere better soon I ain’t afraid to dive into the deep end Used to hide out in the beaches And skip stones Tryna escape it, felt like it always so vapid Packed up my bags said my graces And left home It’s alright when I’m with you Sit in silence in our room Kill the lights and close our eyes You and me ain’t had it easy Made our way to New York City Missed our rent but paid our dues We’ll be somewhere better soon Somewhere better soon We’ll be somewhere better soon Somewhere better soon We’ll be somewhere better soon Somewhere better soon We’ll be somewhere better soon Somewhere better soon We’ll be somewhere better soon Somewhere better soon We’ll be somewhere better soon Somewhere better soon We’ll be somewhere better soon Somewhere better soon It’s alright when I’m with you Sit in silence in our room Kill the lights and close our eyes You and me ain’t had it easy Made our way to New York City Missed our rent but paid our dues
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HOW DID IT GET THIS WAY THIS HOUSE DOESN’T FEEL THE SAME YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT DAMAGE YOU’VE DONE AND I DON’T DESERVE THIS IF I WAS THE ONE YOU WANTED THEN WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME HERE THIS WAY CUZ YOU’D RATHER DROWN OUT EVERY WORD LOST IN THE VIOLENCE AND I MUST HAVE BEEN LIKE NOTHING TO YOU IT’S LIKE YOU’VE FORGOTTEN WHAT YOU LOVED AND I WAS AFRAID OF ONLY THE TRUTH THAT YOU WERE SINKING SO WHY DOES IT FEEL SO LOW SO WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE AFTER DEATH AND I WOULD STILL GIVE IT ALL BACK TO YOU JUST COME BACK AND EARN IT I’M SO FAR AWAY FROM HELP I’M WATCHING YOU LOOSE YOURSELF YOU DON’T KNOW THE SHELL YOU’VE BECOME NO THIS ISN'T WORTH IT CUZ YOU WERE THE ONE THAT'S FALLEN AND YOU DIDN’T SEE THE SLOW DECAY YOU’D RATHER FADE AND WATCH IT BURN KILLING THE SILENCE AND I MUST HAVE BEEN LIKE NOTHING TO YOU IT’S LIKE YOU’VE FORGOTTEN WHAT YOU LOVED AND I WAS AFRAID OF ONLY THE TRUTH THAT YOU WERE SINKING SO WHY DOES IT FEEL SO LOW SO WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE AFTER DEATH AND I WOULD STILL GIVE IT ALL BACK TO YOU JUST COME BACK AND EARN IT
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If I fall have a drink for me then with the people I know here and now I’m calling out for something realer cuz all I know yeah it feels like I’m lost and I’m losing all hope Hear me out It’s not what you do it’s how you believe in me If I hold on to you Then I can hold on for you If I … If I fall have a drink for me then with the people I know Here and now I’m calling out for something realer Cuz all I know yeah it feels like I’m lost and I’m losing all hope Hear me out It’s now what you do it’s how you believe in me If I hold on to you Then I can hold on For you Ever long I will never know why you want me Why you’ve been there from the start but I’ll never stop holding on to you to you It’s how you believe in me If I …. It’s how you believe in me If I hold on to you Then I can hold on for you ever long I will never know why you want me why you’ve been there from the start But I’ll never stop holding for you
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You think you could get away but you won’t And I did my best to let you out here You tried to escape but you’re caught by the throat And you made your bed but there’s no one there I won’t let you go that easy No I won’t let you So wish I could let this go No I won’t let you Get away (Get Away) You kept me chained with you eyes all along And you made this mess now you’ll write your wrongs Your shadow is pain it haunts like a ghost This wasn’t the same it’s not even close You hurt me the most I won’t let you go that easy No I won’t let you So wish I could let this go No I won’t let you Get away (Get Away) I won’t let you go that easy No I won’t let you So wish I could let this go No I won’t let you Get away
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Its like we were made for each other in a different life and now the timing isn’t right We ignored the warning signs oh our fingertips lining up synchronized when we touch got a tragedy kinda love Its gonna end in tears yeah I know its obvious curtains closed our time is up got a tragedy kinda love no happy endings here No we weren’t perfect but it felt like it yeah it felt like it oh we were feigning blind but cant hide it writing on the wall cause our fight with fate was one sided it was decided for us no we weren’t perfect but it felt like it yeah it felt like it was Two of a kind your disposition is the same as mine if its so wrong then why do you feel right I think about it all the time our fingertips lining up synchronized when we touch got a tragedy kinda love Its gonna end in tears No we weren’t perfect but it felt like it yeah it felt like it oh we were feigning blind but cant hide it writing on the wall No we weren’t perfect but it felt like it yeah it felt like it oh we were feigning blind but cant hide it writing on the wall cause our fight with fate was one sided it was decided for us no we weren’t perfect but it felt like it felt like it wa
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Lungs burn, growing calluses, finding balances, time is right but it won’t work, we don’t work. You said, just the half of it, now I’m in a fit, get me out of this sick world, sick world. Lights break, I'm in a fucking mess, want me underdressed, throwing blades into your chest, I'm a mess. Running back to your old ways i keep running back to you. Can’t get away hearts left black and blue far from yesterday what else can I do. Doomsday you got me in a cell fell into your spell ready for a distraction some action. Tuesday the 12th is after me got plans underneath running fast from our old ways I keep running back to you. Running back to your old ways I keep running back to you. Can’t get away hearts left black and blue far from yesterday what else can I do?
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Mental Y’all go mental Y’all go mental killed by the tempo
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Welcome to my heart Welcome to my soul If you want to know more I’m open, yeah Just like a library, you can read me baby You’ll find me on page three, yeah Take your time its OK I’m in no rush today We could just stay here, oh Don’t you love the feeling, when you don’t need a reason To feel good, you feel good, yeah Stop your watch, don’t need to watch Let it breath, I’m forever down with you Baby lets, Run away, run away I’m forever down with you Ohhh ohhh ohhh I’m forever down with you Welcome to my heart Welcome to my soul If you want to know more I’m open, yeah What’s your favourite colour, violet, green or other? I’m no good at small talk you know this yeah Lets just skip the surface, we can take it further Like what keeps you up at night Tell me what you’re scared of, I will be your armour Even when its hard yeah, I’m down for you Stop your watch, don’t need to watch Let it breath, I’m forever down with you Baby lets, Run away, run away I’m forever down with you
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Living but not alive Our existence is a lie Theta is also hypnosis, and the idea is this, before you can become conscious, what are you going to be conscious of? Living but not alive Our existence is a lie Theta Your life is being lived, even though you think you’re living your life
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Outro 04:03

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released September 3, 2021

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Vanic Vancouver, British Columbia

Jesse Hughes, much better known as “Vanic” in the EDM world has been passionate about music since before he could walk. Always striving for creative authenticity, Vanic creates his own genre of electronic music that is fresh and never sticks to the rules. ... more

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